Wednesday, March 21, 2012


Okay, so I'm not gonna focus about the dream but about what happened afterwards. It's because my sister did something this morning. I was dreaming a normal dream. By what I thought of as near the end of a dream (yes, I think I've developed the skill to know how a dream's going to end now), people were planning on what they're gonna do and shit like that. They've already got their final decision that before they leave a certain place, they should pretend to be fighting and THEN open the door (just in case someone was listening in on their convo).

SUDDENLY, my bloody sister opens my door and barges in which shocked the fuck out of me. I don't know why but the very sound of the door being opened really gave me a fright. My heart was beating so fast. She seemed to have cut the dream before it was about to end which I think, frustrated my emotions. My conscience was telling me that the dream shouldn't have ended that way.

You see, it's my sister's birthday today. So she barges in my room telling me to wake up 'cause it's lunch time and told me "Let's eat! We bought Magnum ice cream! We get 2 ice creams each" and I woke up really shocked, my heart was beating (but of course, she doesn't realise this). I looked at my phone to check the time and it was around 12 already. I told her to give me a few minutes. Then she left.

The reason I told her that wasn't because of the usual "give me 5 more minutes". It was so that I could calm myself down. My heart was pounding. I don't know if you get me but just think of the feelings you get when you have nightmares.

And so I calmed down and went downstairs to eat. Jeez! Does this happen to you guys? Do you get that "I feel like my life's been sliced" feeling with your heart pounding? Gave me a fright.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

a sort of lucid dream

Hello fellow dreamers! Today I will talk about a dream I had 2 days ago. I think I sort of lucid dreamt. "Sort of" 'cause I'm not too sure and I only controlled the dream a little bit.

2 days ago, at around 12 in the afternoon, I was still sleeping. Actually, I already woke up and I forced myself to sleep again 'cause I wanted to sleep more. I started imagining stuff so that I would quickly fall asleep (as I always do). I realised I was already half-asleep and the things I was imagining were being incorporated in my dream already.

I was thinking about, here it comes, Cillian Murphy. HAHAHA! I remembered him. At first I was thinking like this... "Oh, Cillian is here. And we're on a plane. And then he pulls out his gun. Oh shit, we're in an reenactment of his movie 'Red eye'" and I totally gave myself a nightmare. I can't explain in perfectly but it was sort of like I was suggesting all the things that were happening. I was really scared to the point that I was telling myself to wake up already (the movie was terrifying) and when I did, I was in panic and was really frustrated.

I think it's worthy of being called a lucid dream, right? No? Well fuck you! I still believe I controlled my dream in some level. Speaking of Lucid dreams, although it sounds awesome to control your dream doesn't it? But I think the process of it all is quite scary. I can't say 'cause I don't have much knowledge about lucid dreaming and how it is done. But I do know that when we dream, we are in a state of sleep paralysis. And sleep paralysis is no joke 'cause I ALWAYS suffer from sleep paralysis. Okay, not always, but there have been many numbers of time where I did.

Sleep paralysis ain't funny. It's scary. You can't move, sometimes you can't breathe (which is always the case with me), you hallucinate like fuck and it's serious business. The first time I experienced this was back in 2007. I was in high school and I thought I was going to die in my sleep. I was super terrified that I couldn't sleep anymore. It ruined me but I'm still sane.

Okay, the post has gone off topic and has turned really long. Good bye!